Sunday, December 11, 2005

(I have not kept up with this blog.... I've started a new one at myspace... right here)



falling....

brad will be home before christmas day. my entire world has been shattered in the last four months. the truths I found.. on deployments...too much time on his hands...he met someone online and fell in love. reality... he wants a divorce.

i'm ill

i'm confused

i'm hurt

i'm angry

i'm still waking up.. taking care of our little boy.. one foot in front of the other.....

but when i lay in bed at night..
i feel like i'm falling.....

Friday, October 14, 2005


October 14, 2005

Brad will be home soon...

This has been a very hard year..

I can't even think of anything bloggish to say.

Friday, May 06, 2005

Brad sent me some pictures of himself holding his guns while target shooting yesterday. Still no word on when he'll be coming home for leave, which makes it so hard to plan things. Jeff will be grauating on the 28th and I had planned to drive to texas sometime after that. But I wanted to wait till after Brad came home. *flips off the Army*

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Today is my mom's birthday I'll have to ask her later how old she is.. lol. I neverhave been able to keep up with their ages. I had this pillow sewed with "granny" on it, but it hasn't even shipped yet! I hate that.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

So much for keeping a blog. Ha. Oh well. I have been a bit lost without Brad. He left for Afghanistan in December and it's just been a different place without him home. He'll be coming home at the end of next month for two weeks, I'm so excited!
I think I get more sad for Drake then I do myself, Drake just doesn't understand it all. He just turned three and we are now working on potty training.. not doing too well with it either. But it's only been a couple of days.
I really haven't been doing much of anything since Brad left .. I want to get more into photography and digital work.. but I'll get started and then just kind of wander away for awhile. So we'll just see what happens. I'm glad it's finally spring, I will have the yard and my small flower gardens to keep me busy.. and I might even attempt to drive to Texas with the kids in June.. maybe.
It's hard, feeling like a single mom.. it's hard worrying about Brad when things happen over there. But I know it's harder for him, he misses Drake so much and he's missed out on seeing a small part of him grow... and that's hard. All we can do is take it one day at a time.... xoxo- ::Tammy::

Thursday, September 16, 2004

Well, I'm not sure how to start this. There is a lot on my mind these days. Brad will be leaving in a couple of months and we are not sure if he'll be gone a year.. two years.. or less. Jeff is in his Senior year, not sure what he wants to do after high school, and I'm so worried about him not having set goals. He knows he wants to go to college.. but he's not sure what he wants major in yet. And then there is Jason, he's 12 and going through some weird phase right now. I worry about him the most these days, I'm probably over anyalizing everything. Drake is a typical two year old, his speech is a little behind what my older boys were at this age.. but he's a smart little boy and I have no doubt he'll catch up soon.
We'll be going to Canada next month for two weeks, my parents and sister will be here with Jeff and Jase. It will be really good for Brad to see his friends and family before he leaves for the sandbox.
Nothing interesting today.. yesterday Brad took the whole fmaily out to eat, we haven't done that in over a year! We need to do it a few more times before Brad leaves.

xoxo- ::Tammy::